You may not realize it but…Mathematics rules the world. It’s omnipresence is heavy on everything. Anywhere you turn, there it is. On the clock, on your phone, in your computer, in your kitchen….EVERYWHERE. And you know, it’s a sad truth but I couldn’t do math for the life of me. Oh sure, simple addition and subtraction, some division here,a little algebra there. No problem. But what about the more complicated problems,like calculus and trigonometry? Once I make it to college, I’m going to be screwed beyond imagination. I can barely learn how to perform simple algebraic functions with teacher instruction…How in the world am I supposed to learn through lectures and reading books? I can’t learn math from a book,I just can’t. I’ve tried. I’ve ever tried to look over things I already knew in a book and just trying to understand it made me know less.
I don’t want to point fingers…::points finger::….But I’d like to blame my middle school teachers. You know the type. The ones that just wrote assignments on the board and left it up to you to figure it out. The ones that passed everyone despite failing grades. The ones who refused to teach even though that’s a job requirement. Can you believe that I never learned how to manually divide until the 11th grade? Oh yeah, I am ashamed. I still count on my fingers, and I use a damn calculator for everything. I’m very dependent on a calculator. It saddens me. I try to learn it, I do, but it never sticks. I know I’m going to need it in the future, a lot. What am I going to do? I can’t keep skimping by math classes and passing with flying colors. I’m tired of asking for help and not receiving any. I’m tired of having to lean over my shoulder for answers. It’s not the person I want to be.
I want to be able to do math.
Lately, the student body is unable to do math. Much of them. Most of them. I’m just terrified of the future. I don’t want to fall into the category of students who couldn’t even pass high school because of math. And I know, I know that my math skills are going to highly affect my SAT scores and I won’t get into the school I want to. But hey,that’s life. What can you do? I’m such an idiot.
2 Comments
May 13, 2008 at 4:13 pm
You’re not an idiot. Math is one of those things that you don’t get for years, and then one day it clicks, and you understand the universe.
December 15, 2008 at 11:28 pm
Math. A universal language. Some of us will be just fine with just learning the basics. It’s and ever changing language and no one, no matter how smart will learn it all. Even the smartest mathematician will get stumped one day.